2012 target

Room with 70ft balcony , personal toilet , covered car porch , hifi system , canggih computer , air cond , doublebed , wooden wardrobe , custom wall decoration , sofa , smooth internet connection , guitar gears , some greeny plants , income x 2 with the current , more time for online buy and sell , more time to see more things around , more flexible time , more time with mum too .

november to be done

   - Change strings
   - full setup
   - repair cables
   - tweak GT8
   - bucket seat
   - intake
   - silencer
   - sound system
   - send mini to workshop
   - clean room
   - buy pivot cap
   - 360 flips
   - hair cut
   - steering for sheng
   - sell absober
   - touge
   - 3000k hid fog light
   - UR bars
   - date jee :)

那女孩

女孩的完美，就是她的唯一缺陷

猜不透的心思，更显了她的气质

感谢我的感官健全，可以感受她的存在

也感谢命运的安排，让我认识了她

使我活下去

我想

追求完美



那是我的缺陷

小鹿，你也喜欢她吧？刚刚很会跑嘛。。。谢谢你了，往后的日子。。。还需要你多多帮忙

SEEK

I believe in balance , for this while i have been keeping my anger , stress and emo feeling . I try not to trust myself anymore but i just cant , i sit in air cond everyday . i wanna sweat , i wanna roll i need that fucking destructive skateboarding lifestyle back , i need to gain back the black blue on my knee and fall down doing tricks over the 8 stairs , i wanna have my car back , fully step on the gas throttle and listen to the crying of an unbalanced engine with the sound of air passing the carb . i need to scream MAC*BAI fucking loud , i wanna sing with my broken lung until i hurt my vocal box and also , i need to have my twin 30 watts laney amp crank up and hit palm mute hard on my guitar . i need to do them seriously , i had enuf of so called " normal " lifestyle . i need to do them all at once , to balance back everything , and then . continue my breathing and enjoy the pulse on my vein . fuck , i seriously have to destroy something .

22 march 2011

I don not have great past , and also present . I will have good future . 

It was like 2-3 months back , when i travel with my sis and my bro back to alor star from kl . We were in my sister's kenari , and it was like night . When im expose to moonlight , i talk a lot .

My sis studying psychology , she like to ask very random question . Use me as her white mouse , try to read my mind ( she might testing me if my mental got prob or not ) . And she told me " the secrets " story , which i choose to believe it , fully . 

Most of them always worry about me , my car , my life , my health , everything they also worrry . Worry that my car will kill me on the road . worry that im living in a terible place , worry that im so skinny ( cant tahan my mum bought me the vitamin stuff , wanna vomit ) worry that why i don have gf yet and stuff . Appreciate that .

I am doing alright and fine . I am on the path , searching and wander around . 

I like to watch , listen , touch , taste , feel . I like to use my given ability . And , i use them to enjoy every little things around me . For example ,the every view of my sight , they are beautiful , the touch of my bed cloth when i lay on it , the 3rd cup of lipton tea which taste like 6% tea and 94 % plain water ( hey it still tea ) , the sound , tempo and tone that runs into my ears and also the smell of greeny plants around , i did put 3 cactus and a random plant in my room , they are just beautiful . Stress and negative mood of mine , i got my own way to release them .

Im enjoying my life , there is no need to worry about me . 

享受

压力?

不幸？

逆境？

穷苦？

饥饿？

疲惫？

还有吗？

这几天面临的，就是这些。

是龙年犯太岁吗？总有些我控制不了吧？

让我脉搏跳动的，是一颗野心

适当的发泄，和不寻常的习惯，是我必要的心理调解。

追求的路上，我真的，很享受和接受这个过程。没得争论，因为很不公平的公平，就是事实。

空想， 幻想， 梦想， 理想

等下2 点要签契约了， 为期一年 。准备加入老鼠赛跑 ， 就在笼里爬不出那种 。 我，要做只猛的。因为我没选择

未来，我们只掌握了一半 。
命运，占了另一半

至少现在对我来说 ，先得把最低层搞到。吃饭睡觉喝水呼吸

花了家里不少钱，做了很多的不应该，是时候想回报了

每次和家人道别，都是复杂的心情，回忆里的点点滴，少不了愧疚。我可以给大家更好的生活的。

过去的任性，往往带来人家的不信任。不过，那些都过了。

等我两年，我要拼命找钱

last 2 days

  my mum and sis , they came and bring me go buy these , totally different from what i wear everyday , total 6 shirts and 3 skinny pants , they say this buying is a kind of investment on me . spend like Rm2300 total ( ok i just blow water ) but many people like to lie on this kind of stuff... don know why

  i don really hate this but i never do this before , should i put this on tomorrow ?

  do back my stuff , clean , lemon oiled my guitar while waiting for the oil to dry i upload this post , will string this killer guitar with daddario 10's .

 edwin want the dick shape cactus , for the sake of 12 years frenship , dude , this 1 sell u Rm750

  im using this laptop since 3 weeks back , still happy with this fellow and damn thomad's keyboard type like shit la no 手感at all ... the old skool 2.1 altec lansing speaker can be describe with the word suck . but never mind as long as the bass come out kaw , what to do with my economy situation now.

  the pagoda ground nuts and tiger beer , brought them up to genting and don have the chance to finish them ... this 1 private property have to lock them up else ah look sure come makan ... cb look

 finally , my short hair ...i hate this hairstyle ... when i become my own tauke later i wanna get lots of tattoo and grow my hair emo style . emo ftw ( first time use ftw , actually don know what it really means and search online , ftw stand for " for the wins , fuck the world , for the woman , fuck the watermelon "or whatever... am i just too free ? wish me luck for my interview tomorrow , i might fuck up again ) thanks for reading