2012 target

Room with 70ft balcony , personal toilet , covered car porch , hifi system , canggih computer , air cond , doublebed , wooden wardrobe , custom wall decoration , sofa , smooth internet connection , guitar gears , some greeny plants , income x 2 with the current , more time for online buy and sell , more time to see more things around , more flexible time , more time with mum too .

november to be done

   - Change strings
   - full setup
   - repair cables
   - tweak GT8
   - bucket seat
   - intake
   - silencer
   - sound system
   - send mini to workshop
   - clean room
   - buy pivot cap
   - 360 flips
   - hair cut
   - steering for sheng
   - sell absober
   - touge
   - 3000k hid fog light
   - UR bars
   - date jee :)

那女孩

女孩的完美，就是她的唯一缺陷

猜不透的心思，更显了她的气质

感谢我的感官健全，可以感受她的存在

也感谢命运的安排，让我认识了她

使我活下去

我想

追求完美



那是我的缺陷

小鹿，你也喜欢她吧？刚刚很会跑嘛。。。谢谢你了，往后的日子。。。还需要你多多帮忙

SEEK

I believe in balance , for this while i have been keeping my anger , stress and emo feeling . I try not to trust myself anymore but i just cant , i sit in air cond everyday . i wanna sweat , i wanna roll i need that fucking destructive skateboarding lifestyle back , i need to gain back the black blue on my knee and fall down doing tricks over the 8 stairs , i wanna have my car back , fully step on the gas throttle and listen to the crying of an unbalanced engine with the sound of air passing the carb . i need to scream MAC*BAI fucking loud , i wanna sing with my broken lung until i hurt my vocal box and also , i need to have my twin 30 watts laney amp crank up and hit palm mute hard on my guitar . i need to do them seriously , i had enuf of so called " normal " lifestyle . i need to do them all at once , to balance back everything , and then . continue my breathing and enjoy the pulse on my vein . fuck , i seriously have to destroy something .

22 march 2011

I don not have great past , and also present . I will have good future . 

It was like 2-3 months back , when i travel with my sis and my bro back to alor star from kl . We were in my sister's kenari , and it was like night . When im expose to moonlight , i talk a lot .

My sis studying psychology , she like to ask very random question . Use me as her white mouse , try to read my mind ( she might testing me if my mental got prob or not ) . And she told me " the secrets " story , which i choose to believe it , fully . 

Most of them always worry about me , my car , my life , my health , everything they also worrry . Worry that my car will kill me on the road . worry that im living in a terible place , worry that im so skinny ( cant tahan my mum bought me the vitamin stuff , wanna vomit ) worry that why i don have gf yet and stuff . Appreciate that .

I am doing alright and fine . I am on the path , searching and wander around . 

I like to watch , listen , touch , taste , feel . I like to use my given ability . And , i use them to enjoy every little things around me . For example ,the every view of my sight , they are beautiful , the touch of my bed cloth when i lay on it , the 3rd cup of lipton tea which taste like 6% tea and 94 % plain water ( hey it still tea ) , the sound , tempo and tone that runs into my ears and also the smell of greeny plants around , i did put 3 cactus and a random plant in my room , they are just beautiful . Stress and negative mood of mine , i got my own way to release them .

Im enjoying my life , there is no need to worry about me . 

享受

压力?

不幸？

逆境？

穷苦？

饥饿？

疲惫？

还有吗？

这几天面临的，就是这些。

是龙年犯太岁吗？总有些我控制不了吧？

让我脉搏跳动的，是一颗野心

适当的发泄，和不寻常的习惯，是我必要的心理调解。

追求的路上，我真的，很享受和接受这个过程。没得争论，因为很不公平的公平，就是事实。

空想， 幻想， 梦想， 理想

等下2 点要签契约了， 为期一年 。准备加入老鼠赛跑 ， 就在笼里爬不出那种 。 我，要做只猛的。因为我没选择

未来，我们只掌握了一半 。
命运，占了另一半

至少现在对我来说 ，先得把最低层搞到。吃饭睡觉喝水呼吸

花了家里不少钱，做了很多的不应该，是时候想回报了

每次和家人道别，都是复杂的心情，回忆里的点点滴，少不了愧疚。我可以给大家更好的生活的。

过去的任性，往往带来人家的不信任。不过，那些都过了。

等我两年，我要拼命找钱